To Be A Great Man

One day, I asked my father. "Papa, why you gave 'Sari Alessandra' for my name?"

He answered, "Why do you ask?"

"Well, I know the meaning of my name. 'Alessandra' derived from 'Alexander'. 'Alexander' derived from 'Alexo' which means 'to defend, help'."

I continued, "I'm asking you to know the reason you gave me that name. So do Agi. Why did you gave him 'Robby Khossagi' for his name? How about Liza? And Rubi? Why, Pa?"

It took a while for Papa to reply.

"I gave you those names because I want you to become a great people," my father replied.


[I've just watch Gladiator. Maximus is a great man. I wish that I could have such honour and spirit like him. For my name have not reflect its greatness. But I still have time.... ]

22 November 2005

Dear diary,

Why do we always make mistakes?

After I made one, I always hope that I've never done it. But it's already happened. I can not do anything to change something that already happened.

Arrrrrrrrrgh! I can feel my own guilt runing trough my blood and stab me every where and every time I remember my mistakes.

But after I think about it again, we made mistake to learn about our shortcomings and life it self. If we never made one, what's the point of living?

Well, I feel better now. Even I still could feel the pain of guilt, sooner or later i'll forget how it feels.

(Forgive me my friends, for everything I've done to you that might cause some tears to your eyes or wound to your heart... I really mean it. I really, really am.)

Mencintai atau Dicintai?

Teringat akan perkataan seorang teman baik, "mungkin kita mendapat pilihan 'mencintai' dulu..karena Tuhan mau kita belajar ikhlas. Sehingga bila tiba saatnya kita dicintai oleh 'orang yang tepat.." semuanya akan terasa lebih indah."

Saya mengutip kalimat itu dari blog teman baru saya, Yaya. Dan saya berkomentar begini di blognya:

Tau enggak, menurut saya memilih yang lebih baik antara mencintai atau dicintai tidak penting. Kenapa? Karena kita tidak mungkin hanya akan berada pada satu kondisi "mencintai" atau "dicintai" saja. Hidup kita akan diisi oleh keduanya secara bergantian dan terus-menerus. Baik kita hanya akan mencintai atau dicintai saja pada satu selang waktu, atau kita mengalaminya secara simultan. Selalu begitu.

Justru yang penting itu adalah bagaimana kita bisa belajar saat kita mengalami salah satu atau keduanya. Kalimat yang saya kutip itulah salah satu hikmah yang saya dapat mengenai "mencintai".

Thanks, Yaya. Tulisanmu memberi saya penerangan baru agar hidup ini lebih bermakna.

Bagaimana menurut Anda?